IVE BEEN SO FUCKING STRESSED. UP TO MY HAT BRIM IN STRESS. STRESSSTRESSSTRESSSTRESSSSSSSSSSS......F
But, Lately, also...It's felt like Lenny and I just met. When he says that he loves me, it's like he's saying it for the first time all over again, and I've been feeling so many butterflies around him and holding his hand is so awesome. This morning he was like "I loved sleeping with you last night" and I know EXACTLY WHAT HE MEANT BY THAT. It was one of the best sleeps we've had together and I don't know why it's been like this recently...he doesn't hesitate to cuddle me, or tell me I'm beautiful, not that he ever has, he just does it more now. I know he's not cheating on me, lmao, just cause, but he's incredible sometimes it makes me feel so great. And even though our electric is about to be shut off, I feel great beacuse of him. And kissing him it just amazing..sigh, I can't help but say I LOVE HIM every five secs, not to remind myself, but because I FEEL SO STRONGLY ABOUT IT. UGH.
Outside of being with Lenny I'm seriously in a horrible fucking rut and I just can't take it anymore. I got a C on my midterm and I'm going crazy even though my instructor told me not to worry about it because I'm doing much better than what the grade says, and my final grade won't be a C, I don't care, it shouldn't be a C in the first place. I'm just STRSSING hardcore. blahhhhhh I need a job.