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November 16th, 2008 @ 2:08 pm I am more than honored. [ ] [ mood | ecstatic ] So, a few months ago I wrote about drawing tattoo's for my chef, Brad. Well, last night, he went about, and GOT ONE OF THEM. So now, I am honored to say that someone has MY ART tattooed on their body. It's a big picture, but here it is. :) ( It's simple but it's meaningful ) I've never felt more happier! lol. 1 R C M E

March 28th, 2008 @ 7:14 am Pictures and things [ ] [ mood | creative ] So here is the picture of the cakes I've been talking about! ( CAAAAKKKKEE ) Basically, it's what I want to do. So, if you can help me out with cakes that'd be awesome. If you want me to make you a cake, I will, but after driving to VA I don't think I can do anymore "free" cakes, but I won't be charging an arm or leg since I've just begun my cake ventures I just need to beef up my portfolio for now so I'll probably just charge for supplies or something. I think I want to move into a bigger apartment or one with a way better kitchen because I have NO SPACE here, WHATSOEVER! It was SO hard to get the chainsaw cake made because I didn't have any space to work with it, ugh. It would be 10x better if I had more room to work. I wanted to stay here until I could get into a house but I don't want to wait that long! I know apartments are no investment because you're not getting anything out of the deal, but still, we have the money to afford a little more rent...I don't know. This sucks. Well I have to get ready for work :C See ya latorz 2 R C M E

June 12th, 2007 @ 7:23 pm Mr. Carey, sir [ ] [ mood | amused ] Oh - Just watched The Number 23 with Jim Carey (love that man!) And it was absolutely incredible, I don't understand what all the bad reviews were about. It was so intense and the ending was perfect, really, he plays all roles very well. I loved him in, well, every movie he's ever played a role in. Of course, I probably haven't seen every single movie he's ever played in but I'm taking a chance here and saying I'll probably like them. :) ( well, then.. ) 2 R C M E

June 2nd, 2007 @ 5:00 pm finally [ ] [ mood | relaxed ] a nice deep RELAXED BREATH. My electric bill is down to 28$!!! OH god I'm so happy..We're finally caught up with all of our bills, I have a job, everything is lookin up. Except we're still using my moms truck and the neon is still in lockdown, hmpf. I hope they didn't chuck it..I'll call monday. Man, we need vehicles. But I'm not too worried about it right this moment. Work has been hectic because of all the graduations and everyone ordering cakes >.< But it's been great :} And I loooove getting paid every week. <3 Back to cleaning my apartment and such..my lease is up next month and I have to make sure my landlord will let us stay for another 8 mo's or so o.0;;; :} I love thunderstorsm, btw C M E

June 1st, 2007 @ 11:47 am ha ha! [ ] [ mood | pleased ] My check from cashcrate for $50.18 was sent out today..I should get it in a few days and I'll show all of you that it's REAL. fuckers. Anyway, My electric was shut off for the past 2.5 days..late payment..and they wanted $250! We had to get Lennys Dad to pay it so we'd have electric :C It was SCARY, I slept the whole time it was dark because I'm sooo afraid of the dark its not even funny :C Work..IS AWESOME! I love it..I've only been there a week and the store manager has already recieved good comments about me from customers, hahahah! I'm so awesome..and my cakes look GREAT! :) Its good stuff. Plus I was only working like 3-4 days a week for like 4 hours a day but I talked to my manager yesterday and she wasnt sure how many hours I wanted but now she's gonna give me a bunch more :} I'm so excited..I get my first paycheck today! Granted it won't be much cause I didn't work a lot last week, but it'll be awesome..feeling that check and knowing ITS MINE! I missed working...and now I'm doing something I really love..:) School...is hard! I've been on the brink of failing every quiz I've taken so far :C It sucks. I havent had the internet for a few days so I wasnt able to do some of my work but I'll get it up to date this weekend and see how next week is :P But other than all of that...I hope the weather stays nice today, I have to walk to and from work today. I like walking but not when its 95 degrees outside :C I stayed at work an extra 2 hours to wait til it cooled down yesterday..I love the people I work with :) And that's all folks! C M E

May 27th, 2007 @ 8:47 pm it was 90 degrees today [ ] [ mood | full ] virtually donate 1$ to me by signing up and doing 1 offer! [click here] woot. My new job is GREAT! It's a lot more tiring than I thought it would be, but that's probably because I'm not used to working so much XP Anywho, my title is "bakery clerk" hehe and they threw me DIRECTLY into decorating and I've iced about 100 cakes so far [shwew!] but they left me in the bakery alone for about an hour and was just like "decorate these memorial cakes" so I was covered in red/white/blue icing all day XP The only problem is standing is hell on my back and plus alot of people want us to write on premade cakes and I'm so concious about my handwriting especially with icing, so I've only done 1 and somehow I can't bring myself to do it..I'll get it eventually I've just gotta practice my icing cursive >.> It kinda makes me not want to go back to school -_-;; But I'm gonna finish if it takes all that I've got!! Ugh. Flies in Lancaster are BAD and they are ANNOYING! I've killed like 20 (ewwwW) Lenny and I saw Pirates of the Carribean 3 on friday and it was 3 hours long >.<;; but I really liked it..a lot of people said they didn't like it, but it was really good and a lot of the times you think "wow I can't believe they did that this sucks" but then something good comes out of it and your like "OHHHH okay wow thats awesome!" lol There is a good chance they will make a 4th one. Ummm..I didn't write my report for Italy :X hmm..I guess that's about all..except I'm extremey jealous of this community I'm in because the owner JUST found out about cashcrate (the referal thing I'm trying to get everyone to do for me) and she had 500 of her members sign up out of like 10,000 and make 500$ last month..whereas I made 50$. I was pissed cause ITS NOT FAIR! No one trusts me that it's real because it's the internet and everthing on the internet is a scam..but I keep trying to tell people this isn't and I'm suffering because I could be making HUNDREDS OF FREE DOLLARS but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. AHCK. Envy is my weakness it truly is. THE END! C M E

May 12th, 2007 @ 12:55 pm XD [ ] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | john lenon - imagine ] Okay okay okay. I talked to Nancy, the bakery manager...ANNNNND! I got a job. BWAHAH. Okay, not as cake decorator, but that's okay. It's a dough plating job for now, but on the weekends she's going to train me in decorating and eventually move me into that job, which is OKAY with me! Wooptie Woopt! I'm really excited about it :D Um, yeah...I would say more, but I'm cleaning. I just wanted to get it out. <333 C M E

May 11th, 2007 @ 11:56 am hehe ;] [ ] [ mood | excited ] Okay, well I went out on a journey yesterday to find a JOB! And I came across a few options but, like I said before, I've really steared my mind toward cake decorating or pastries or something in that feild, so instead of going back into Dollar Tree, or trying to find something JUST for work, I decided to try and persue that. So I applied at grocery stores and places of the sort and well, GIANT just called me :D There isn't anything official, they just want me to come in and see "how creative I am" hahhahaa, I burp creativity. lmao. She said that culinary school is a plus and they want to see if they can afford to train me and things along those lines and then they'll set up an interview. I'm gonna go in tomorrow at like 7am, because that's when Nancy is there, which is who I need to see. Plus the giant is open 24/7 so I can basically work until whatever, of course the bakery stops production in the wee hours of the night, but that's okay. And I'll have to walk home at night since Lenny will be working, but that's okay too because if I'm working in a bakery..my god I'll be FULL of baked goods! lmao, the walking will do me good. And it's also good since I've been taking walks everyday, my body is prepared to walk...everday and it won't be a struggle :) I really hope that I can get this job, and really, if it's not cake decorater, if it's just a bakery assistant that I can change into decorator, that'll be fine too. I also know that bakery jobs pay a good amount, too, it's hard work. :) *squee* I'm sooper excited :D -calms down- but seriously, you guys, pray for me or something, lmao, cause I REALLY want this and REALLY NEED this job and it will make me soooo much happier and I won't feel like lazy scum all the time and I can finally talk about my JOB at school because we do it EVERY term. It'll help out Lenny and I's relationship financially too because our finances do sometimes get on our nerves and it kinds of puts kinks in our happiness sometimes. If this doesn't work out, I'll just end up having to settle for anything at this point, I mean, it's been a YEAR since I've had a job, and I ALWAYS had a job from the day I turned 14. Hmpf. And one last thing, if anyone really reads this, I know I have a ton of friends on here, go here: http://www.cashcrate.com/index.php?ref=33722 and sign up and make money doing really dumb shit online and not pay one penny! Most of the offers cost nothing and you can make .50-2$ for every 2 minutes you take to complete an offere. I'm at $29.57 and if you sign up with my link, and do 1 offer, which will take like a second, I'll get a 1$ bonus from you and 20% of your offer, and hell, right now, 1$ makes a big difference. And if you're skeptical, research the website, they have a forum you can go to and all the proof you need is there, you won't find cash crate on any scam boards anywhere, because it's real and you can do it. Thanks guys :) 1 R C M E

March 16th, 2007 @ 2:04 pm one of your dreams [ ] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Heatmiser - not half right ] Lately; IVE BEEN SO FUCKING STRESSED. UP TO MY HAT BRIM IN STRESS. STRESSSTRESSSTRESSSTRESSSSSSSSSSS......FUCKING. fuck. stress, damnit. HOT FUCKING DAMN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh. But, Lately, also...It's felt like Lenny and I just met. When he says that he loves me, it's like he's saying it for the first time all over again, and I've been feeling so many butterflies around him and holding his hand is so awesome. This morning he was like "I loved sleeping with you last night" and I know EXACTLY WHAT HE MEANT BY THAT. It was one of the best sleeps we've had together and I don't know why it's been like this recently...he doesn't hesitate to cuddle me, or tell me I'm beautiful, not that he ever has, he just does it more now. I know he's not cheating on me, lmao, just cause, but he's incredible sometimes it makes me feel so great. And even though our electric is about to be shut off, I feel great beacuse of him. And kissing him it just amazing..sigh, I can't help but say I LOVE HIM every five secs, not to remind myself, but because I FEEL SO STRONGLY ABOUT IT. UGH. Outside of being with Lenny I'm seriously in a horrible fucking rut and I just can't take it anymore. I got a C on my midterm and I'm going crazy even though my instructor told me not to worry about it because I'm doing much better than what the grade says, and my final grade won't be a C, I don't care, it shouldn't be a C in the first place. I'm just STRSSING hardcore. blahhhhhh I need a job. 1 R C M E

February 14th, 2007 @ 2:49 pm [ ] [ mood | happy ] Its been a good week so far :) Monday everything went as planned, except Lenny was called into work, BLAH. I got the ring I wanted :) I saw Bkilllllz and we ate Wendys, mmm. I didn't put any money into my acct because I've decided as much as I really would love to save right now, it's impossible. Lenny and I might have 3 cars soon, w000rd! So I'll get a job and things should start getting financially better :] Um, it snowed here. A LOT. Like, a foot so far and still going. And I haven't had school the past 2 days :P Well I didn't have school yesterday because my body was totally exhausted from the day before - driving to de, therapy, mall, driving to wendys, my moms, driving back to pa and then waking up at 2am to pick lenny up from work - UGH. And so I stayed home. But today it was because of the snow and maybe even tomorrow cause its still snowing like MAD CRAZY! LENNY LOOOOVED MY PRESENT :) I made him a 12 page story (1 page for each month we were together) on how we met and I put little flaps on each page with an excerpt out of my journal for that time we were together. And some pages had pictures of us cut and glued into it and on the inside of the back it has a letter I wrote to him. It's so cute and he loved it and that made me so happy..I watched him read it, awwww his facial expressions were toooo adorable!! :) :) He had to go to work today so I gave it to him at midnight, hehe. He's gonna make vday up which is totally cool with me :) Lately he's just been the most wonderful person in the whole world and I love him so much <33 Oh = and we got married in the game!! hahah so on each of our accts it says Spouse: Dottie and Spouse: Lennx <-- his chara name :P We're so dorky!!! :D oh oh - I finally cut myself at school, GOOOOD thing my knife was sharp!! I was chopping brussel sprouts and ;;SLIP;; and cut the tip of my thumb almost clearly off :P Now I have a gross scabflap of skin, hahahah and tons of dry blood under the skin it's pretty sick. <3 2 R C M E

February 9th, 2007 @ 7:24 pm I'm done! [ ] I finished his present! *whew~!* :D :D :D I hope he liiiiiikes itttt C M E

February 6th, 2007 @ 11:40 am bonding rules [ ] [ mood | content ] I love my college, man. We were let out almost 2 hours early but half the class stayed like 20 mins just to hang out with eachother cause we're cool like that. And seriously all we did was stand there and chit chat like we didnt want to leave. It was comforting for some reason :P Im coming down from a serious coffee high and I have the shakes :C this sucks REALLY bad. I hope today doesn't suck. And the end. C M E

January 30th, 2007 @ 8:09 pm Art...kinda? [ ] [ mood | creative ] [ music | launch radioo ] So, I'm trying to work on my digital art since ya know, my scanner, my baby, my precious little obi-wan is broken. Anywho, I've been working on this pic for about 3-4 hours now, It's okay, not amazing, but I figured since some of you don't have dev I'd share it here. ( angel ) 2 R C M E

January 27th, 2007 @ 2:41 am I liked it better when they weren't here. [ ] WHAT THE FUCK. Its almost 3 IN THE FUCKING MORNING. I have to get up in 3 hours to go to Johns funeral and the PeOPLE UPSTAIRS ARE FUCKING PARTYING. IN FACT, LENNY IS NOT HOME YET AND HE HAS NO WHERE TO FUCKING PARK. Our parking lot is all gravel and there is usually a good 8 spots, and usually only 4 are taken up, BUT NO. ALL OF THEM ARE TAKEN, AND 2 CARS ARE PARKED ACROSS FROM THE CARS, BLOCKING THE WALKWAY TO MY DOOR. WHAT THE FUCK. I'm half tempted to call the cops, half tempted to walk up there and give them a PEICE OF MY FUCKING MIND. WHICH IS VERY MIGRAINISH THANKS TO THE FACT THAT I CANT FALL ASLEEP AND IM LISTENING TO THEIR SHITTY ASS MUSIC AND THERE SCREAMING "WOO" EVERY FIVE SECONDS. Jeezus christ. CALL IT FUCKING QUITS. AND GO TO SLEEP.  What the hell. THEY know I live under them, uhhh...RESPECT? klasjgioesjgsk;du;flasjgewnbafjgsdhgewkiuthskthsdkgjaisrmihirajhsfalkmhawhas. UGH.  I hate people. The end. It's 2:44am and Len is still at work. I just called him. Whyyyyyyyy *cries* 2 R C M E

January 23rd, 2007 @ 8:17 pm RIP [ ] [ mood | crushed ] R.I.P John Dalton.  Man. He finally let go. I'm glad that he did, not because I wanted him dead, he was just struggling with so much. He's better off not laying in bed just waiting to end. He had cancer, and emphasema and all that. He wasn't in great shape, but he left a lot of great memories behind. Good ol John, he's just that guy you'll never forget, even if you've only met him once.  <3 He'll surely be missed. I hope my mom is okay. 4 R C M E

January 23rd, 2007 @ 6:14 pm [ ] [ mood | bored ] [ music | crash romeo ] ohh man. I can't wait until Valentines Day. The 4th will be Lenny and I first year, and we're gonna celebrate it all on Vday :) We want to spend the day somewhere, but it's so cold, we don't know where to go? I know we'll probably go out for din din or something, I don't know yet :P But I'm making his present, hahaha. It's so dorky!! I don't care it's cute :) But I know I can't wait cause it's gonna be aweeeeesome. lovelovelove.  I had to reschedule my doc appt til feb 12 cause it snowed and the neon sucks balls. Gah. I've been going crazy here, damnit. I don't do shit all day long. Literally, imagine the most lazy day you've ever had and that's my day...every day. heh. I'm such a loser!! But hopefully my car is fixed and inspected by next month so I can go get a jooooob!!! Then Lenny will probably trade in the shitty neon and we can start to get him a truck. He really wants a truck...they're so expensive though!! Bah. :P  Oh well. I'm bored....lalalalalalaala C M E

January 21st, 2007 @ 11:46 am Itz a gooood [ ] [ mood | content ] [ music | jack johnson ] I changed my layout! W00t. I love Kurt Halseys art. it's so comforting! :) The pic was made by him, I adjusted it, used some brushes, added the border and some words. I love the colors :) If you get a chance check him out, though --> KURT HALSEY I'm going to lay with my honeyyyyyyyy. He made me feel so much better when he got home last night, hehe. :) I had a dream that Sid had 8 kits last night! WHOA! I think that is an impossible # for chins. But I can't wait until she has her 2nd litter, it's gonna be EXCITING!!!! :D I love baby animals! C M E

January 14th, 2007 @ 3:26 pm jahhahah!!! [ ] [ mood | excited ] I just fell in love with pyramid-games.com because I can down load just about any old sega game I want!!! I used to be fucking addicted to sega. I downloaded Earthworm Jim cause I used to loooove that game!! Im so excited. I can get any simpsons game, paperboy 1 and 2, Bubsy 1 and 2, Road Rash, Streetfighter, Man the list goes on and on and on!!! :D Whew. I hate this keyboard, the fucking space bar keeps sticking and it hurting my thumb! :( But I'm off to play some games and type up my report,wooo!! C M E

January 8th, 2007 @ 1:36 am druuuuugs [ ] [ mood | restless ] [ music | T.V ] I have to get up for school in 4.5 hours. hahahahaha. I just took an endocet hopefully I can fall asleep...Lenny should of been home by now. Blah. C M E

January 6th, 2007 @ 4:26 pm All in days work I said [ ] [ mood | chipper ] Wow. I went to kohls bright and early this morning - the weather is AMAZING!!! I absoluletly love it and I can't stop going outside!! :) I'm contemplating walking to the park but it's actually kind of far away and without lenny to push me back (lol) I'd probably end up sleeping there, lol. I spent my gift cards and got 2 pairs of pants and a sweet tshirt that says "Be nice to me or I'll sic my ninja monkeys on you" lol! It's so cute it has ninja monkeys on it :] Anyway..all I really wanted to do was come say how beauuuuutiful the weather is - a bit chilly now - but still beauuutiful. It put me in a really good mood :P billbillsbillllllllls. Hahah the only crappy thing about apartments - teh bills. They'll all be taken care of soon, though, which will be awesome. And then I'll be totally stressssss freeeeeee. I'm saving up the rest of my xmas monies. Right now that equals about 85$ lmao. Lenny doesn't know it yet, though :P It's mainly because I want to get him something for our 1 yr//valentines day because last year I ordered his present online and it never came :( And we couldn't get anything for eachothers birhtdays or xmas cause of all the crap we've been dealing with - but hopefully this year will be different..I'm going to try my hardest to make everything stress free this time around. Ahhh I love him <333 I want an Ab Lounge Ultra. BAHH. Too bad they are $150+ and I'm poor. heh. I can't do normal sit ups cause of my back - brahgshg. WHICH! HAha, my mom and sister are suing this guy cause they got into an accident not too long ago and Dave was like "Yeah, we could cut you a 10k check each right here!" lol. So hopefully all of our lawsuits workout and we all live happily ever after! yayyy. And im spent. 2 R C M E

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